Ok, so it's going on 3 months now since I got laid off as part of a corporate downsizing. I worked for a BIG health insurance company, had been there 6 years, and was a very good employee - no big news, right? All kinds of good people get laid off/downsized while watching and scratching their heads over who got picked to stay. I managed to land one of the census taker jobs, which will carry me thru next month, and then unemployment again. I have good days and bad days now, sometimes all within the same day. It's a strange way to live, almost schizoid, thinking things like, it's ok, the bills are paid for the month and there's food in the house....but it's like a cold hand around my throat too - I'm no kid, folks, I'm a middle aged woman, single, with a handicacpped brother to worry about, and it scares the hell out of me to think what might happen. He'll be taken care of thanks to SSI, and Medicaid, and I am very grateful for that.

But like another poster said, I wonder how my life got to this point.